Note: I am not a negative person, but yesterday STUNK.
That's Baby B in the ER sporting a purple gown and a cute diaper tush.
She was such a sad girl yesterday and I was a very sad mommy.
After two days of flu symptoms she just wasn't eating/drinking much.
She woke up yesterday with a dry diaper and I got scared.
Called the pediatrician and they said, "Take her In"
I felt stupid. Like I had let her down.
I am her mommy, I am supposed to protect her from bad things.
I knew something was funky, but I ignored my instincts thinking I was being overprotective or worrisome.
BUT, I should have listed to my gut.
Luckily...she is just fine.
We spent an hour and a half in the waiting room
Watching person after person go in before us (that obviously did not take care of themselves)
I knew we weren't "high priority" but couldn't they see my sweet baby laying still in my arms...She's never still.
For an hour and a half.
All I could do was hold her and kiss her and tell her how sorry I was.
We finally got in and she was evaluated. They put "numbing cream & stickers" on her arms and hands in case they had to start IV fluids.
That's when I lost it. Needles + Tubes in my baby? Oh dear...
Alaina didn't even get sick until she way 2 1/2...I had NO experience with sick babies.
I started thinking about all of the parents who go through A LOT worse than this. Those whose children come into the world and have tubes and such attached to them for survival. Those who sit by their kids bedside as they battle sickness and disease and I LOST IT.
I was scared. I knew that she'd be fine, but I was still scared by the what ifs.
Then, my father-in-law walked in.
He helped me feed her, hold her, entertain her, entertain me.
He stayed. I was grateful.
Baby B laughed...I cried...she was OK.
Then she fell asleep from all that went on.
There were FOUR major things I learned from today:
1. Trust your instincts, always.
2. Take care of your health. If your struggles are something that you DO realistically have control over...take control. Do it for you and those who love you. Ask for help. There is a lot of life to live, make it count.
3. Say Thank You and say it often.
4. I want to DO something. I have been thinking about this for a few days. I cleaned my sewing room the other day and I have LOTS of quilt blocks done + quilt tops almost done that would make AWESOME kids/tween quilts.
My goal for the year is to finish FIVE quilts and deliver them personally with my kids to the children's hospital downtown. It's the least I can do, really.
I have set my goal at FIVE so that it's attainable. If I surpass it, great.
Even thinking about having a group sewing day at the shop just to finish some stuff up and get others involved. Email me if you'd be willing to donate an afternoon to make a kid smile.
kristinawilberg@gmail.com
Off to spend the day with my ladies..hopefully no one pukes;)
All the Best, Kristina










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